this is not my writing; this is from karen's facebook.

please take your time to read all of this! it most definitely spoke to me.

“'I know all the things you do, that you are neither hot nor cold. I wish that you were one or the other!.. ..But since you are like lukewarm water, neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth...''

(Revelations 3:15-16)

Maybe for some it might sound harsh, but if you really look at the context of what he's saying, you might understand. Take this analogy...

It's your wedding day, you're excited to be with the one you love forever! Once the vows are said, and the marriage begins, it's exciting in the beginning. But as the months progress, you realize your mate has grown used to you or a better word: comfortable. There's no more romance. There's not that awestruck look in their eyes when they see you. There's not that huge smile when you walk through the door. There's not those random calls to say I love you. It's as if they are there, but not REALLY there. Sometimes you wish you could ask them, 'I know you're with me, but you're not expressing your love. I wish you could either change, or just get out of my life, because it's too painful just being married to you, without YOU.'

We all want commitment, but commitment without passion, without fire, and without love is almost like being trapped -- being handcuffed to someone you can't stand, but it's for life.

Well, when you met Jesus, you made a lifelong covenant with him, a promise that you would be with him forever. That day you decided to accept Him into your heart, was the day he had always been waiting for. He thinks to himself, 'I can't wait to be with this person, to love them, bless them, give them hope and be there for them when it's hard, and when it's happy. I'm so fully 100% commited to them.' And in the beginning you say, 'Yes Lord, what will I do without you! I love you!' But suddenly distractions come -- boyfriends/girlfriends, friendships, school, work, stress, fear, disappointments... and that love you once had soon becomes a bond that you tolerate but are not passionate about.

'Yes I'm a Christian, but that's where it ends. There's no fire, no passion, no zeal -- there's just the title.'

But I encourage you today -- be HOT for the Lord. Let that fire for him NEVER die, just like you would never want a marriage to fail. You would never want your husband/wife to get USED to you, but rather everyday strive to make the relationship better than it was the last. The biggest insult we can ever make to our Lord is to get comfortable with Him, neglect Him, and think 'Yeah I'll be passionate for Him ....one day.... i'll make my life right.' No, do it NOW, because you're not guaranteed tomorrow. Commit yourself, ALL OF YOU, to the one who gave You ALL of Him!! And you will have the most amazing, exciting, and fulfilling life, I promise!

i've realized ...

i am extremely blessed. prayer is powerful.

so ... i should be getting ready to leave to pick up my friend, but oh well. i just got back from a bible study at the college which was really good, even though it was only 6 of us. but the girl said that most of the people weren't there this week, so i look forward to meeting new brothers and sisters in Christ next week.

i've really been .... pulled down? i mean, i feel so empty hanging out with the people i meet at college. so what i'm trying to say is this: He is all i think about. and the more i hang out with these girls who root their identity in shopping and partying, the more i realized the only thing, the only person worth rooting my identity in is Jesus. and i know this sounds so crazy to people who haven't accepted Christ in their hearts. but the thing is that when you fall in love, crazy amazing love - everything changes.

i don't desire to go out and drink and dress a certain way for attention from guys. i don't desire to shop until i drop. i don't desire to be someone i'm not in order to fit in with the world.

and when they're sort of just talking about shopping and going out to movies, i'm sitting there thinking that there's more than that. it's such a simple but powerful thought. and there are these organizations i would like to be involved in, but they say "that's too spiritual and deep for me" or brand me as a religious fanatic. but we all know there is a difference between religion and a relationship, but explaining this to someone is difficult for me. they are coming from a completely different mindset, and i find myself in my room crying and praying for these girls that i don't even know.

i like talking about Christ. about God. about life. i'm concerned about what's real, what's the truth, and what matters. i like talking about people, and why we are the way we are, about our minds. these are the things that matter to me.

i've been thanking God every single day for the people in my life. i'm thankful to know those people that help me in my walk with God.

....i really don't know where i'm going with this blog. i guess it's just a blurb i had to get off my mind :P my bad for the randomness.